tuesday part 3

I am so angry...it is a red boiling poison that is oozing through my veins.

I want to hurt someone...break something.

I need to scream but sounds cannot escape me.

I am raging, rabid and hungry to destroy.

I want to pass on my pain.

I don't deserve this.

I deserve a good life and good things.

Not this shit hand I've been dealt.

I hate myself and I hate what's happened.

I need help......I need help!

I can no longer help myself.

But I will not be a burden...

I will not destroy anyone else.

I will bottle up my pain and throw it away....hoping it will leave and not return to me.

And if it does, I will throw it out again.

I am so angry...

I am so hurt...

I feel so abandoned.